Journey to Morocco: Letting Go & Finding Freedom
Sometimes the most important journey is the one that leads us back to ourselves
I am en route to Morocco for a wedding. We have planned around a whole summer trip around this wedding. It is quite exciting to take a vacation as soon as the girls are out of school. The last few weeks of school seem never ending. But we are done and here we are on our way to Morocco. I am a very involved parent and that being said, I have not been able to blog and I was missing it.
This little nook of the internet has started becoming my place of comfort.
Recently, in the few busy weeks of my life, I have started analyzing a lot of what is important without any judgement of course. Around spring time I clean up my life physically and emotionally. Letting go what does not serve me anymore. I let go of books which I know I won't ever read, clothes, knick-knacks, and just about anything in my physical life. However, it is a bit harder to do that stuff emotionally.
However, this time I just surrendered to the Universe. I did not give it much thought or opinion and the process of letting go was easier. There are many books that I tried writing and I let go of those. I gave myself permission of not obsessing over "not writing" and giving myself a hard time for not being disciplined. Honestly, it feels good. It feels good to not have to worry about it.
Am I going to write another book? Yes! But does it have to be NOW? No! I set all these expectations for myself but internally I know I am just sabotaging myself.
I think I have gotten into the habit of self-sabotage and it is what I had to let go of. I want to be able to not worry about writing. I want to be able to just write blogs and read books. Books that swoon me.
It takes a lot of courage to talk about things that you feel like need to be discarded from your life. But acceptance is the first step to setting yourself free.
I am really tired of carrying around a baggage of expectations and forcefulness of finishing what I started but I finally just want to sit and breathe. I want to take in the ocean when I am at the ocean. I want to make videos and create content but I don't want to worry about books. I simply think when the time is right the book will come to me I won't have to go looking for it.
My marketing friends have told me to blog more and not worry about my book for now, therefore I am taking on their advice and for once I am not going to fret about a novel. Instead I am going to do whatever my heart wants. Yes, if the story comes to me, then well and good. If it doesn't, I am not forcing one because after several projects I have let go of because of this, I know for sure that I won't finish it if I am not feeling it.
Adventures Ahead: Spain & Morocco
In Spain we are going to Canary Islands and San Sebastian. I am extremely happy to ground in the sand and get to let go. I have been carrying a lot of baggage around the past few months with what I am supposed to do and what I want to do.
I want to connect with people, I want to create content when I want. I want to write blogs and share my writing with the world instantly. I want to share my travels. What I don't want is obsessions. There is a difference between desire and obsessions and desire is healthy. Desiring something is human nature but obsessing over it pulls you away from it even more.
You don't have to take an extravagant trip to let go of what's not serving you. You can simply just hand it over to the universe.
I was having a hard time doing that because I want to continue writing books however, right now maybe the Universe has another plan for me and you as well. Therefore, I am going to explore. I am going to connect to Mother Earth and have her tell me what to do next.
I am so glad to be back! Will share more travel blogs or inspirations from travel. Until next time, Chao!
Rabail
Living authentically, one journey at a time